Dave Dishman

No one likes the weaknesses we see in ourselves. Physical problems sap our energy as we soldier on despite aches and pains. Issues with our bodies arise from accidents or aging. But sometimes the results of a rash act when we’re young never fades away.

Saul, later to become Paul, inherited a lifetime malady due to his hatred of those following Jesus. Here’s how it all started: Saul, still breathing threats and murder against the disciples of the Lord, went to the high priest and asked him for letters to the synagogues at Damascus, so that if he found any belonging to the Way, men or women, he might bring them bound to Jerusalem.

On that road to Damascus Saul met Jesus, who knocked him to the ground and struck him blind. Three days later the Lord sent Ananias, a brave Christ-follower, to give Saul a message and restore his sight. We’re told that something like scales fell from Saul’s eyes, and he regained his sight.

Paul never looked back. After meeting Jesus he spent the rest of his life preaching and writing and starting churches. But his eyesight remained poor. He complained about it, spoke of a thorn in the flesh, and often dictated his teachings to a scribe.

There is no mention of Paul’s bad eyes before his conversion. I’m guessing those scales caused lasting damage. He could see, but not as before. I believe God left scratches to remind Saul of beating all those innocent people. Paul carried these scars to his death, a reminder of a life now infused with God’s unearned goodness. Paul now trusted God for the power to go on, rather than his own gifts and abilities.

Our weaknesses remind us of our need for God as well. We endure, and our deficiencies point others to the Lord and thus advance his kingdom. Eyes may dim, hips may give out, cancers may grow. But through it all we can be honest about how we feel, and still speak of the goodness of the Lord. Complain and move on. That’s how Paul dealt with his affliction. I’m thinking I can do the same.

Acts 9:1-18

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I prayed the other day for God to move the traffic in front of me. Shallow, I know, but I often pray for God to change my circumstances. My wife shared a wonderful devotional about this very topic with our team of Faculty Commons staff. She pointed out how we pray for God to set things right around us, when God actually desires to set things right in our hearts.

Samuel anointed Saul as the first king of Israel, a total shock to the young man. In an instant his circumstances radically changed. So unnerved, Saul even hid when his name was announced as the new king. But God came along. We’re told that after his anointing, God gave him another heart.

God did not change anything about the obstinate people of Israel. He did not weaken the Philistines, their fearsome enemies. Nor did he change Saul’s family or friends or hairstyle. Nothing changed—except for Saul’s heart.

While I often pray for my circumstances to change, I’m realizing that God is more interested in changing my heart. As my heart transforms I gain a new perspective on circumstances. God views my life through a timeless lens. He plays patiently, crafting my soul through various circumstances.

Do I still pray for the traffic in front of me to part like the Red Sea? Unfortunately, old habits are hard to break. But I’m hopeful the Lord will remind me in those moments the value of the new heart he’s forming. Heavy traffic is only one of his tools to make me a better man.

1 Samuel 10:9

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I’ve always found this verse to be confusing: Precious in the sight of the Lord
is the death of his saints. Does this mean that God is happy when a good person dies? Why would God value the death of those who serve him most faithfully?

But the verse actually underscores the fact that God welcomes into heaven those who completed their life still following him. That’s no easy task. The Christian life consists of a long obedience in the same direction, and many veer off the path. But those referenced here cross the finish line focused on the author and perfecter of faith.

God doesn’t want us just to die, he wants our death to transition us from earth to glory. God created us to live abundantly, and he welcomes his saints into life as he designed it. Our souls desire nothing more than to live in proximity to their maker, and joyously leap at their return.

To his followers that cross the threshold God says, Welcome home, let’s spend some time together. Better words you and I will never hear.

Psalm 116:15

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Moses famously drew water from a rock, but did you know that Samson did as well? After winning a great victory over Israel’s enemies, Samson nearly fainted due to thirst. He called upon the Lord in his desperation and God answered:

God split open the hollow place that is at Lehi, and water came out from it. And when he drank, his spirit returned, and he revived. Therefore the name of it was called En-hakkore; it is at Lehi to this day.

En-hakkore translates to the spring of him who called. Samson called to the Lord in his time of anguish, and the Lord answered in a miraculous way. How often have I called, and the Lord has answered? It’s good to think back on the moments in life when good things came from unexpected places. Could that have been God working on my behalf?

Keep praying. The same God who provided for Samson provides for us. You and I face dry, stony conditions at times, but who knows, perhaps the Lord is holding water behind those rocks for exactly when we need it?

Judges 15:18-20

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